Goals

I have had the same goal for some years now.   To lose a bunch of weight - like 30-40 pounds.  And it is still not done....so I have just over a year to the big 40.  I don't want weight loss to be the focus.  

http://www.pattidigh.com/  Patti Digh  asks  "What would I be doing if I only had 37 days left to live?"   My answers really do not include dieting.  None of us does know how much time we have left.   And while I'm not worried about how much time I have left, this year I have been privileged to witness a couple of heroic women and their days of living the best they could until cancer overtook their lives.  It does make me think about goals, about what kind of legacy I want to leave for my children.   My number one role in my life indeed is mother.

Goals are supposed to be specific, measurable and realistic.   If I lost 1 pound per week this year, mindfully eating...I could be there to the weight loss goal and perhaps without too much extra focus diverted there.  So, how to make this related to my number one goal?   To live healthier, be a better example of health for my children.   

The reasons why I have not accomplished this "healthy" body, includes my mental health and childbearing weight.  Ultimately it's because I have not taken responsibility.  I prefer not to examine my own defects of character   I have to take responsibility for what goes into my mouth, for getting up and exercising, for compulsive overeating, my short fuse and laziness.

Dave Frahm  http://www.healthquarters.org/ says that good health (inside and out) requires work, commitment, common sense, working knowledge and support...and making changes and practicing self discipline.  He goes on to say that "It's (my) body.  (I'm) in charge of the war effort.  Everyone else is hired help.  (Am I) ready to do what it takes?"

So, yes.  I am hungry at this time to take this mid-life journey of health and focus.  


Okay, so here it is specific measurable goals  (Behavior goals - not just lose 30 pounds):

1. To say "yes" more than no to my children.
2. To agree with all those who say that it's like the oxygen on an airplane - if I take care of myself first, I will be more able to take care of others.
3. A goal of 1300-1600 daily average calories would get me there.
4. To keep track...I wonder how many months I have left on http://www.calorieking.com/  It was recommended to me by a nutritionist last summer (?)...and I certainly have not used it as I should.
5. Plan more of my eating in order to think less about it. More on that later.  Time for me to try out http://www.kitchenmonki.com/?
6. Move more -   http://www.jazzercise.com/   Year 2 for me.

I would like a goal to be to get support - and yet, I find it difficult to ask here.  Husband would be as supportive as he is able...I don't know, I feel so much "failure" in surrendering hunger over the years that I want to suceed and keep it between God and I.  Hmmm think on this.   Maybe http://www.uvm.edu/vtrim/ which was recommended by http://www.eatingwell.com/   and ultimately, I want to take my hunger right to the Lord.